Are you really ?

We hear people talk about the truth as if there is this one thing called 'the truth'. If I look at a wall and it is green, that is what I see and I will swear the truth of it. Someone else may look at the same wall and see blue and swear the truth that, that is what they are seeing.

Who is right? Can there be 2 truths?

What we believe to be true is true- Apparently

What do you believe, about yourself, about other people, and about the world we live in?

As we sink through the layers of our own mind, through the different levels of consciousness and memory, sooner or later we start to get a glimpse of an inner silent realm. Are we creating this by choosing not to think? Or is this silent realm the true reality. And what's the difference anyway?

William Burroughs the famous American fiction writer felt that the mind's thought processes were comparable to a virus we picked up somewhere on our long evolutionary way. He felt that the natural inner state should be silent and peaceful. Apparently he would sit for hours just staring at his shoes. William Burroughs was also a heroin user at various points through his life, but he idea useful in that he saw the mind for what it was, or what he 'believed' it to be., and maybe found it easier to have a quiet mind by using heroin. . . . ?

I like this view of the 'silent' mind, but not the use of heroin I might add. I like the idea that thoughts are like an invading virus and are not natural or necessary for human function. But having said that I think about things all the time, and feel the way the things I think about affect me all the time. The more I practise Asana, Meditation etc, the more I see these invading impressions for what they are.

'I think therefore I am'

'I don't think therefore I OM :)'

Om Om Om

We breathe, think and feel . . . . . . .

One thing we know for sure is that as a human being we will all think, feel and breathe, and sooner or later we will have to come to terms with the fact that we are all gonna die one day.

What we think about and how we feel is what shapes our 'subjective' reality. The world we live in is informed by the input we receive. If you watch News 24 and read the Daily Mail everyday the input from this will inform the reality you live in. It's the same if you read the Yoga Journal and Superman comics and spend all of your time reading spiritual type books and going to yoga classes, and music festivals, it is all subjective.

Input leads to output, we become what we are informed by. I guess this is why some of the yogi's go into retreat in a cave in the Himalayas. They no longer need to be informed by outer things.

Where one is at with their practise is very personal. For example how old you are and how much time you dedicate to self-practise, also where you live and who you live with, the career you have chosen etc, will all be impacting on how you are in the world you live.

Ultimately, according to the books I've read and indeed through my own experience, we will become more internally focused and less needy of material toys, medals and dramas, if we continue to do yoga.

In a sense as far as I can tell, what we (some of us) desire is peace, that's what I desire most of the time. How we go about achieving that goal is very personal. Yogic practises will bring peace, and once we have that, what more is there to have? Yogic practise will bring peace but it may also upset you sometimes too!

Wanting this that or the other is the thing that keeps us in the world of materiality, and in a sense, in a place of meaning. After all this is the way of the consumerist world we live in, is it not? We keep wanting and getting, but remain unsatisfied and as time goes by this dissatisfaction can grow into something that disrupts our sleep, and our work and relationships. We may seek help and/or some form of therapy or exercise programme and find 'perhaps' some answers.

Life needs meaning, how do we get that? According to the yogic philosophy there is no ultimate ground of reality, it is all subjective, it is Maya, illusion.

(Does it really say that?).

What are we to do? We keep looking for meani0ng, we try this that or the other, we feel great, we feel terrible, we relax and we get very tense and as we continue to go through these hoops of fire we start to wake up to the idea (some of us that this is all there is! Oh dear.

This is the point where some of us may need to go to the doctor, and there we may be advised to go to therapy, or in some cases we may require medication. All very upsetting, but it seems to me for some of us a necessary requirement for the movement toward surrender.

If you close your eyes and relax and breathe in and out calmly and steadily through your nose for 5, 10 , 15, or 30 minutes you may find that there is really nothing to worry about. If your body is very tense you will need to do some Asanas first so you can sit still. That sounds easy enough doesn't it. . . :))

Om

Commitment. . . oh yea.

So 'in' time we begin to become more responsible for what 'we' do with 'our' time.

Responsibility must follow on from the progressing awareness that evolves as a result of our ongoing commitment to the practise. That is taking more time to practise because you have realised that it is this that makes all the difference to the here and now of the life you are in.

It is a bit like the chicken and egg drama, and it kind of doesn't matter which comes first really does it, we will, if we commit, be able to move beyond the ties that hold us down.

Some of the ties that hold us down are; our attachment to the past, our attachment to who we 'think' we are, our dramas involving our relationships with others, etc.

We will not become robots, like some people you see in the yoga studio who seem totally emotionless and cold. We may/will become ourselves, that is we start to see more clearly who we are in relation to everything. It cannot fail to happen. But the commitment 'has' to be in place.

Commitment for me meant in the past that I really never had any choice, I was in a terrible condition, physically, mentally and anything else you can think of. So in a sense I never had much choice. I new Hatha Yoga made me feel better and I didn't care too much how it worked.

As Time went by I came to value this practise and I invested in some of the more informed books available and read them to find out more about this ancient art.

'Freedom's just another word for nothing left to loose' Chris Chistopherson. 'Bobby McGee'.

My comment on emotionless and cold people was intentional, because i see allot of that. It is separatist, but not necessarily wrong, it could just be an adjustment somebody is going through. Rebalancing ourselves is the main theme of the first stage of yoga. If you have been very hedonistic you may find that you become the opposite very ascetic and self denying.

This is all good, all we have to do is put one foot in front of the other and keep breathing.

The thing is once you find out who you are, what are you going to do? :)

Om

So little to do . . . . .

If we never had to go to work in order to pay the bills, if we never had to do what we really didn't want to do, but have to do, what would we do with ourselves?

For the ego yoga is ultimately not a good thing. It's a bit like a friend that says, 'I will help you, sure I will'. But when the going gets tough the friend complains and tells you how hard it all is, and that maybe you should give up this thing, that just may help you see that you don't need this friend in the first place.

I have said it before: Yoga by it's very nature is designed to take you into yourselves/self and away from the trivialities of mundane reality. Mundane reality being all of the things that you have to do and don't really want to do, e.g, working, paying bills, etc.

Yes I know some of you like your jobs but you know what I mean!

But hold on a minute this thing we call the mundane is what takes up the majority of our time! Think of how much time the average person (not you), spends at work. If we average it out into a 10 hour day, this includes travelling to and from our workplace, that is a large chunk of time!

24 hours in a day, 8 asleep, 10 involved in work things, this leaves about 6 hours to do . . . . . what? Even if we split it a bit more evenly, 8 hours working, sleeping and ? We still find that we have a limit to our 'spare' time, and more importantly, what we 'choose' to do in that spare time.

What am I going on about?

One of the major impacts on me during my illness with leukaemia was the whole issue relating to time. At that stage of my life, time seemed like a very precious commodity, and I was wrenched by this realisation of how I had previously spent allot of it unconsciously, acting out my dramas.

Well so what you might say, and indeed you would be right. Because the further from my illness and the profundity of meeting the 'grim reaper' I moved, the more I got back into the petty worries and dramas that are associated with so-called normal life.

In a sense this is the thing we call duality isn't it? The Yin and the Yang of it all. The profound and the trivial becoming more distanced from each other, as we continue to choose, and become almost addicted to being high all the time. In this case we go beyond the trivial and can become marginalised, joining the flocks of spiritual seekers rushing off to Bali or India and elsewhere because it's a bit easier to be spiritual when the sun shines everyday and you can live on £5 per week.

I tried it and found it to be completely empty while others love it, so I guess that's my karma as they say, to stay here in London and grind it out! And I do love it most of the time, if I didn't I wouldn't be here.

Anyway before I waffle too much I leave you with this thought; Who are you really ? ? ? ?

Om

How? WHO? When and WHY?

"There ain't no guru can see through your eyes" John Lennon. 'I found out'.

Well indeed it's quite a strange thing if you think about it, but how can someone that is 'not you' know more about you than you do? Strange indeed. . . . . .

But there are some people that seem to need guidance, some people that seem to have lost the way, or more importantly, lost themselves.

There is a system of belief somewhere, that states that we all vibrate at a certain frequency. The purer you are the more hearty the vibrational signal you send out! Homeopathy works on a similar principle, i.e, the more finely tuned the remedy the more powerful it is.

So for example if you take a Yogi type that practises muchos yoga, and place them against someone that drinks booze and smokes and takes drugs etc, you will probably find that the yogi has the more pure vibration. It depends on your perspective of course, a drug/booze probably would not agree.

If you put these two people together, sooner or later one would affect the other in some way. Maybe the yogi would start drinking and/or maybe the boozer would stop drinking, and start doing some yoga. It's as if the vibrational resonance of each impacts in some way on the other, a kind of osmotic effect could take place. Of course this would only technically occur if the two were somehow forced to stay together.

So if this situation happens voluntarily, i.e, the lost soul (for want of a better term) starts to hang out with the Yogi, sooner or later the information the Yogi is putting out will have some kind of affect on the lost soul. Generally usually in the form of reaction or conformity.

So this is what we find isn't it? The lost soul needs something, so it goes to a yoga class, or some other discipline for that matter, in order to find a way ahead. Then through a process of doing or not doing the given practise, reacting and/or conforming over a long, loving it and/or hating it over a very long period of time, the lost soul starts to get a sense of itself, starts to find a voice in the darkness, a 'will to power' itself into asking some of the questions above, eg, 'who, what, where, when'? But instead of finding many confused answers there may be a steadiness to the body/mind and breath that will allow the answer to flow down from a different, or more informed place within. A place that is different from the egoic conditioned answers that are usually required.

Bullshit ?? Maybe :))

Om

Emotionzzzzz

There is a big difference between having your emotions and letting your emotions have you, you know that by now I hope.

If we can breathe consciously, then we can think consciously, and have our feelings consciously, it's a bit more intense for a while but you know you are alive.

Everybody has emotional reactions, so to have someone constantly pointing out to you that you are emotional, is, to say the very least, a bit of a nightmare. It's a bit like someone telling you, " hey you're breathing, did you know that? Well of course I bloody do!" We are emotional beings, we have feelings in order to process information in the body.

The 'fight or flight' response is hard wired into the system. So to think or believe one day that you are not going to be emotional is a myth.

Sedation is the answer of course, if you cannot handle the emotions, numbing out with booze or drugs etc, is a great way out.

Of course if you live within a closed system, 'a cult' where emotions are not expressed you will become 'dead' from the neck down and think that you are at peace, you will be kept busy and become very tired. Until you leave the safe haven of your little 'cult' then you will be a victim of a backlog of e-motion.

Learning to live in the real world and having feelings is the way to go we cannot avoid life, people, places and things unless we are able to go to a desert island or another planet.

This is the burning ground, here now, right where you are, not off somewhere in some exotic place lying on a beach smoking weed thinking you're sussed and cool, avoiding contact with anything that makes you slightly uncomfortable.

Harsh words perhaps, but I get do fed up with the 'shanti bunnies', living in some false hashram kind of lifestyle never coming into contact with anyone that does not fit into the realms of there particular psycho-emotional dynamic. People that teach or practise yoga and then go and get mashed up on weed and booze and thinks it's all ok . . . . you know what I mean.

Judgemental me ?? Too right I am .. . . . . . .!

" Said it's a hard road to travel up, it's a rough, rough place to go" Jimmy Cliff.

Keep it clean, keep it simple.

Om

Cake and Eat !!

Yoga by definition will make you less interested in the world and all it's 'stuff'. It will take you to a place of peace, a place beyond attachment, it definitely will.

Maybe that's what we are really afraid of. The idea of losing interest in materiality to the ego is death. So we cling tenaciously to people. places and things for security. Why wouldn't we if we are living in the material world?

We may experience, when we begin this yoga, a great relief, we have found something with some substance that has depth and meaning and a philosophy that reaches back into the past way beyond the sixties and the 20th century.

And novelty is a great thing, we love it, we love our teachers, we place them on pedestals of great height. We fall in love with the whole practise, it's all lovely and wonderful. But as we continue we may be challenged, we may see things about our teacher and ourselves that we don't like. If we can get over this we may even begin to realise that everything in it's own way is flawed but perfect.

This is a hard place to get too, this is where the practise really begins. The fair weather yogi's go back to the pub, or get a new boyfriend or girlfriend, get a new job etc, and put yoga to one side for awhile, or forever even. That's ok too, this is Karma, the long road may not be for everyone. The practise may carry you through to a place where you are happier and more content, it drops you off and 'may' pick you up again later. It doesn't care really it's just there waiting in the background for the day when you fall back into the illusional drama's of the material world.

Then people talk of balancing, the yin and the yang of it all. Well in my opinion if you are 'looking' for balance you are missing the now!

Be who you are now! Whatever/whoever that may be and wherever that may take you, trust the process then have your cake and enjoy it.

Be honest with yourself, are you truly happy??

Om

it's not gonna change or is it?

What is it this thing called life? What are we here for?

When you think of these things with any gravity something inside of you trembles, because there are no pat answers. The asking of such questions has been the concern of philosophers etc since time began.

If however there are no thoughts there can be no conundrum, no mind, no problem, lovely !!

How can we live without a mind, a mind that thinks all the time? Who cares, all we need to know is that the ultimate goal of yoga is to go beyond the mind and if we are really doing yoga we are doing it!

As we start to create more space inside our thinking we can start to see clearly what it is that is pulling our strings, or what makes us tick. As we continue to practise, on good days and bad and even bloody terrible days, we will surely start to see the nature of our self, our conditioned self, that part of us that is always on the ball, thinking and dreaming, planning and scheming.

Then at a certain point a gap may appear where a thought used to be, aha!, a glimmer of light gets in, mmmm this is more like it, this is where I want to be going we may think.

You are never going to get a glimmer unless you make some kind of commitment to the process. You can chant to Hare all day long but unless you are engaged in this process fully you are wasting your time, and that is something you can probably afford to do if you are young enough :)

As I said earlier getting nice and busy is a great way to fill time, to avoid going deeper into the 'real self', because going deeper into the 'real self' involves a little bit of discomfort, and that is something we definitely don't want. Not that pushing and shoving and getting all masochistic is going to do you any good either. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

that's F-alse E-vidence A-ppearing R-eal based programming.

Feeling - Breathing - Getting into it!

What's your problem ?

Om

Being and having . . . .

When we find the calm breath rhythm and the mind begins to relax we start to see that peace within (and without) is possible.

For most of us it is not an easy thing to stop thinking when we want to, so the first step is to become aware of what it is we are thinking about. It's a strange thing to do for the first time. It's as if we suddenly realise we are not our thoughts. If we can see ourselves thinking then who are we? Are we the thinker or the one observing the thinker?

One proposition put forward by someone, and I can't remember who it was states: 'What the thinker thinks the prover proves'.

This means that there exists within at least three aspects of mind, 1. the thinker 2. the observer 3. the prover.

First of all imagine that we can have a quiet and peaceful mind, a mind that is empty of all thoughts, then imagine or not what the mind is really like most of the time, thinking about this, that or the other.

So we have these two perspectives and possibilities, at least, a mind at peace and a mind discombobulated.

When we think about something, unless we are aware that we are not our thoughts, then whatever we think about becomes reality, and because it is reality the prover will have to prove that what we are thinking about is true. This is known as 'projection'.

So now we find that with a little practise we can start to be more aware of our thoughts, we see them come in and we see them go out. We are now observing ourselves thinking. The more often we do this the more easy it is to experience our thoughts as almost alien intelligences. This is the 'ego', the conditioned aspect of 'the self', that literally 'thinks' it knows everything.

'I think therefore I am' is a well known and much used phrase from our distant past. It is a law that becomes concretised into the body/mind.

There is a vast difference between being ourselves and having thoughts, feelings and emotions and not being ourselves and letting our thoughts, feelings and emotions have us!

You have the tools to do this in yoga, you just gotta start using them.

Alternate nostril breathing is one way of finding a way into this experience of witnessing ourselves at a deeper level.

The speech centres are in the neo-cortex, the front of the brain, move your attention towards the cerebellum, the pre verbal part of the brain at the back, and sit in there for awhile.

You wont know unless you try!

Oom

Ongoing ongoing ongoing. . . . . .

The nature of yoga is surely designed to take us away from the material ego dominated world. It is designed to initially make you more aware of yourself, and this, as has been explained, is a double edged sword which ultimately leads to us taking more responsibility for our-selves.

So far so good if we have the karma for it!

Moving into ourselves and away from the world in a way that is not a neurotic self-examining but a more mindful way of living, we may soon realise that it is only us that creates the scenario's we find ourselves the victims of by the way we think and behave towards ourselves and others. This is the 'conditioned' nature of reality or Samsara, that we are all more or less at the mercy of, some of the time.

By going deeper into this initial 'real-I's-ation' We find perhaps sooner or later, that it is entirely up to us what we 'choose' to do and there is no-one we can blame anymore for our predicaments. This is we find, a good but hard place to find our-selves. But by now, hopefully, we have established a 'proper' practise by which to guide our way through the 'slings and arrows of our outrageous fortune'!

You may find yourself in conflict with yourself at times as the inner aspects or selves vie for the dominant role in your life - this is normal- in an abnormal kind of way, at least by the standards of the so called 'normal' world. But as the indomitable spirit of the yogic practise becomes more apparent in your life these conflicts begin to dissolve, and you will become more integrated.

Confused ?! Good ! Keep breathing and relax.

Om

busy busy busy

Keeping busy is a good way of keeping the thoughts at bay, it is also a very good way to make you tired, so you may sleep better.

Compulsive busy-ness is a good ruse to keep you out of the existential conundrums that so mortified the great thinkers of the past and present for that matter.

Thinking is a very interesting thing we do. What we choose to think about, the conclusions we come to in our thinking processes are all what go towards creating out inner world, and therefore influencing out outer world.

Compulsive thinking keeps one out of one's feelings, indeed keeps one out of one's body altogether. It will also make one tired, but it won't let you sleep!

To be able to be more choosy about what we influence ourselves with on all sorts of level must be one of the most important things there is to become aware of. If we don't do that we just keep re-playing the past over and over again.

Alternate nostril breathing is one way of becoming more aware of what it is that is bothering you in the mind. To see it and let it go so that the mind can return to a more peaceful mode, and therefore influence the brain and nervous system which has a direct impact on the way we are at all times.

Central Nervous System - Autonomic nervous system - Sympathetic Nervous System - Para Sympathetic nervous system.

It is a sad fact that most people know more about their car engines than they do about the function of the body they possess, now that to me is very strange.

Ommm

pranayama, pranayama, pranayama

After a little break from doing this I have looked at some recent blogs and feel as if i have been waffling a bit. My judgement is that it's all ego stuff! Well it is 'all' ego stuff isn't it? Whichever way you look at it.

If you're gonna have an ego have a good one, one that supports you rather than sabotages you.

In 97 I went to India with the dubious plan to heal myself of luekaemia. While I was there I went to see the 'now famous' Ama. She hugged me and said "pranayam, pranayam , pranayam."

To be honest I thought it was all a bit rubbish and I left soon after that and went back to the place i was staying in Trivanderum, Southern India. There was a few guys who were into yoga and I told them what happened, I never knew what pranayama was in those days.

They showed me some of the alternate nostril breathing techniques which made an immediate difference to my mental state, it made me less prone to my negative mind.

It works !! thats the message here, but you have to do it!! Ha . . . . . .

Ommm

Simple but . . . . .

It is very simple really, and you don't need to be a yogi to know, that what you believe to be true is true for you!

If you can remember at all times that whatever you are thinking is affecting you in some way, and that most of what you think about, most of the time has no relevance whatsoever to anything tangible in the external world, then you are on your way to a more interesting life.

Argue with me if you like, but ask yourself, whoever you are. Do you really know what you are doing ?

At some point in time for me I realised that I was being carried along, and all I had to do was put one foot in front of the other and follow my nose. When I was younger alas, I thought I knew it all and so I went along and fell off the rails because I thought I knew what was best for me and indeed you. There was only one problem with this, and that was that I actually didn't know who I was!

Now I know that what works for me may not work for you. But one thing I know for sure is that with yoga you have an age old, tried and tested method of finding that one thing that you never knew you had lost in the first place, YOU!

All of the hype and the dramas and the super star yogi's wont help 'you'. 'You' will help 'You', once you realise it is only 'you' that can do it in the first place, and you have the manuals in the books I have already mentioned within this blogging idiom.

Read; Programming the Meta-programmer, by John Lilly. The movie 'Altered States' was, I believe, based on John Lily's experiments with LSD and isolation tanks and before you throw the baby out with the bathwater look into it, not the bath, the book. He was indeed a very strange man but he sure has something to say.

Yogic pranayama, asana and meditation gives you a glimpse into the conditioning of the mental programmes and prejudices that you are now in possession of. You, Me and every single person will be under some illusion or another about what is real or not.

You don't have to worry really because whatever it is you are worrying about may not even have happened yet and if it has, well it's already happened, and so it's over, you don't have to worry anymore.

I know, I know I don't know what pressures you are under and forgive me if you think I am being patronising, I'm really not. But I am like you in that I have a mind and I worry and get caught out sometimes because I suddenly think it's all real again. What I mean is that something happens (like the other day) that seems to confirm an old belief in me (not sure which one) and I buy right into it and get all upset.

Over the years of doing yoga my life has become increasingly more peaceful. In spite of what happened to me the other day I am rarely prone to anxiety and worry in the same way I was before 'doing' yoga. and that for me is proof positive and final that I am doing something right at last!

If you're reading this then you probably are too! Maybe? :)

I think there is a transition period between the beginning of travelling into your 'inner world' and making a deeper connection to body mind and breath and moving away from the externally/materially motivated ambition and desires of the 'out there world'. It's made up of t the time it takes to fully wake up and know that you are your own lawgiver, soothsayer and idiot all rolled into one, all you have to do is know which one you are operating form and 'act' (being the operative word) accordingly.

Hari Om !!!

more.....

More practise - leading to - more awareness - leading to more practise- leading to - more awareness and at some point - more and more responsibility - leading to - more choices- leading to . . . . .?

I had a difficult experience the other evening. I was vaguely threatened by a young man. At the time I wasn't really frightened, but later as my mind started to play around with what could have happened I became more and more fearful. It was interesting to watch my mind play around with what had actually happened and devising all sort of scenario's to what 'could' have happened. The over arching thing though was the anxiety it generated within me.

In one of the appendixes of Georg Fuernstein's informative book, 'Holy Madness', he talks about enlightenment. In this discussion he talks of 'seeded' and 'unseeded' enlightenment.

Seeded enlightenment is a condition in which most of the time you are in an 'enlightened condition' or state of consciousness. But under certain circumstances, i.e, under pressure, stress or difficulty of some kind, the 'seeds' that still lay deep within our psyche or consciousness are fed and we become disturbed and therefore unenlightened.

In computer terms we go back to using old programmes that we thought we had erased

We can all identify with that to some extent, e.g we are happy and therefore peaceful doing certain things, and not happy and not peaceful doing certain other things. Watching a good movie and relaxing with a nice drink as opposed to going to work on a Monday morning in the rain on the rush-hour for example, to a job you don't particularly enjoy. In one state we feel more or less peaceful in the other we may feel anxious, tense and miserable, maybe :)

Feel free to reverse this scenario if you like.

So we may identify with the enlightened mind from the image of these two (lower) perspectives to some extent, perhaps.

To be in unseeded enlightenment then, seems to imply that you are bothered by nothing ever under any circumstances!

After some time I was able to return to my more peaceful state of mind by using some breathing and meditation tecniques, in other words bringing my mind back under control.

Just a point here about the dreaded word control. It has become a little 'bastardised' in our language. If you use the word in certain contexts you may be accused of being a 'control freak'. But the control I'm talking about is like the taming of a wild horse (the ego), if you let it run free it may do you or others some harm.

Even more importantly once you realise that you are 'not' your thoughts then the 'controlling or not controlling becomes irrelevant, does it not ?

Ok then what I am getting at is that you think all the time, so if you become more aware of what you think about then you are less likely to stress yourself out unnecessarily by playing around with unnecessary imagined scenario's.

Instead you see what is going on in the cranium, and then through breathing and becoming more conscious, looking deeper at the inner ramblings and sorting out the wheat from the chaff you can become 'clearer' in your own mind by realising that everything you are thinking is down to you and you alone.

You are free to choose to think anything you like, there are no limits, the only limits are the one's you have constructed or that have been constructed for you by parents or other authority figures in your formative years.

Now the interesting thing here is that if you have been brought up in a stressful environment then you will know what that feels like and it may be that this stress is familiar and therefore comfortable for you. So you repeat and continue to do what you know. You may complain endlessly about being stressed and anxious all the time, but you may not know any other way, you may not be able to relate to feeling peaceful. So you continue to do what it is conditioned in you to do, you are re-creating stress and anxiety because it at least feels familiar.

All I know is that when I was feeling that anxiety the other night I was totally aware of how seldom I feel like that ever nowadays. At one time in my life that was a very familiar feeling to me.

The rewards of yoga are not shown in medals and honours and black belts etc. It is shown in the quality of your life. . . .

Ommmmmz

they said it was easy !!!

The older systems of brain transformation were rather radical. This was in the days when people were less concerned with comfort and more concerned with living life to the full! Whatever the reason you do yoga i.e, brain transforming, you will be either someone that cruises along waiting for the miracle, or someone that will 'go for it' a bit more, looking for the miracle just around the corner.

Either way these two ways imply that you have a lack of some kind, and you 'do' yoga to 'get somewhere' or 'get something' that you think you don't currently have.

What is it that is missing ?

Doing a really good yoga class is a bit like finding an oasis of energy and relaxation. We top up with prana, we feel better, then we go back to the so called mundane reality of everyday life and slowly our prana ebbs away until we 'need' another top up. And so it goes on and on.

This is all good until one day you go to a class and come out feeling the same way you did when you went in, what has happened !? Oh no the yoga's not working anymore!

Well to be honest anything that you you over along period of time will sooner or later become mundane.

'Today's heresies are tomorrow's dogma'.

But if you have time to reflect on this phenomena you may find that you are higher than ever. You may look back and realise that your life is much more of a flow now and the high's and the lows are much less dramatic. So all that has happened is that you have got used to living at this higher energy level and the magical has all started to appear as the mundane.

Fear not, because sooner or later something will happen in the form of life taking certain twists and turns and you may plummet several thousand feet into the abyss of 'no prana' and a body that feels like it's been run over by a bus. The catalyst for this event may be anything at all, but I can assure you of one thing, nothing lasts all is temporary, and the sooner you get used to that the better.

Don't get attached to feeling good, otherwise you will only enjoy yourself when you are feeling good, and feeling good is the most subjective thing ever invented by the ego. Do yoga when you feel like you've been run over the the number 67 bus! Do it when you've just won £36.000 pounds on the horses, do it when your happy or sad, peaceful or raging.

Or just have a Bourbon and relax . . . . . . . . .

You always have a choice . . . . . . . . . . . .apparently :)

Ommmmmz