More and or less . . . .

I have found that the more willing I am to 'commit' to a regular (yoga) practise, the easier things have become for me in many ways. If I want to play the game of getting upset by everything I can easily do that, I just stop practising.

But - there is a part of my mind that is not happy about this. There is a part of my mind that thinks that I shouldn't have to do anything to have an easy and pleasant life. That life should be easy as it 'appears' to be for other people, ha ha. The Guru sits and smiles enigmatically. Is this the same part of me that my mum used to say about me that; "You think the world owes you a living?" I would say definitely yes!

So this part of my mind has to be placated and at the same time somehow allowed to express itself in some way. The Ying and the Yang and the old integration of opposites phenomena comes to rest firmly at 'my' feet, what can 'I' do about it? This has always been a rather large stumbling block for me, as my own worst enemy and all that jazz. But somehow having to make a decision between which side of the coin I am doesn't have the same amount of emotional pressure to it that it used to have. Why? It is because I (think) that most of the time I really do see that the line that joins the Yin and the Yang is me, which side of the line I drop becomes a choice which is informed by, what? . . . . . practise. . !

So now I see that rather than being placated and tranquillised by my yogic practise I am in fact informed by something else. Hmmmm the sceptic says, you'll be getting a call from Richard Dawkins soon. What is this something else? Who knows, who cares. When Archimedes was struggling to know how to measure volume for months on end what was it that made him notice the bathwater rising and for him to shout 'Eureka!' I Don't know, but I doubt if he worried too much about how he came to his conclusion, just that he got to it.

The hard work is the practise, not the other way around. People still seem to think that yoga is some kind of escape route into some strange land where Hindu Gods float around waiting to give answers to the Karmically pre-disposed soldiers of fortune. It can be like that if you see it that way I guess but not necessarily so.

As the instructions will tell you, stop complaining and - Just do it! But do not lust after results.

'Fear knocked at the door - Faith answered and there was no one there.'

Om Hari Om