Sitting still, we empty the mind (sometimes) and we look into the infinite void, hmmmm lovely. As we continue to sit we feel (some of us) the inflow and the out flow of the God given breath. More hmmmmm's follow as we wait, if we wait 'as sure as eggs is eggs' we will find a little feeling creeping in or a little thought for that matter. We observe this thought/feeling, and more hmmmm's appear.
So what are we doing then when all of this is taking place? What messages do our dreams bring us, what about the weather and how we are affected by that? What about it all? Perception is merely the conditioned organising of things that fit or don't fit into our frame of reference. If they don't fit we will usually disregard them as figments of our imagination.
The heart is basically a pump, but according to older wisdom etc, it is also something to do with love and compassion for others and ourselves, is this true? When was the last time you watched a really sad movie or heard some terrible story that made you weep? Is this real or is it something we learned?
What is real? This is the question I keep coming back too. Because the yoga books tell me that it (life) is all an illusion (maya), and because yoga has given me so much I have to take this on board as well, 'in for a penny in for a pound', this idea of illusion then, what does it actually mean?
The ranges of feeling we can go through in a day or in an hour for that matter, are enough to show us that nothing in that realm is permanent, it changes and keeps changing. The multi-fold permutations as to what constitutes the 'now' reality are multi-dimensional, this is a very overwhelming thing to realise.
We live (most of us) in a little narrow band width of reality, we don't necessarily have the time or the inclination (some of us) to be bothered very much to consider if these other dimensions exist, and even if they do, well so what, what are they going to 'give us'? We are unfortunately so caught up in Ceaser's world of finance (work and bill paying etc), and romance (relationships, family stuff, etc) to notice anything outside of these orbits.
We can use the 'idea' of multiple levels of experience in a practical way, indeed as it should be, not some strange esoteric mumbo jumbo to keep you coming back for the next instalment. We do this by going back to the way we move continuously through ranges of feelings and thoughts as we move through different dilemmas and experiences during our day. In other words how we are affected by people places and things as we try to maneuver ourselves through the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune (life).
We have conditioned ourselves to avoid certain feelings because we don't like them anymore, and as we continue to chop out what some people might call 'negative experiences' we become limited in our range of experience. We are not really afraid of feelings but we are afraid of the memory of past similar feelings whereby we have been made miserable.
People may avoid getting into a sexual/emotionally charged relationships because maybe they had some bad experiences in the past, leading to an isolated existence of intimacy avoidance. Another way to avoid feeling intimacy is through addictions and behaviour modification, i.e becoming a tyrant or a victim of life and 'acting out' a role, thereby avoiding authentic relating. All of this just to avoid feeling too much!!
But once we '"REAL-ise it is all an illusion and that nothing can really hurt us at the level of ananda then we can move into these experiences more as an experiment.
"Did he just say nothing can hurt us? He must be a nutter!"
We can live in fear of being hurt or live a fearless life and get some experiences of what it is like to truly be alive, it is a choice.
'Fear stops you loving and love stops the fear' Hmmmm.
To stop blaming others and start owning your own issues is another way to 'get real', from a feeling perspective.
Of course you can ignore all of this and just do yoga on a Sunday before you go home and have your Sunday roast!!
Hahahaha !!
Hari Om.
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